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The Skin They Want To Live In

Years later, while debating with my aunt what we would do if a pile of money were to magically fall into our lap, she said the first thing she would take care of were the wrinkles between her eyebrows (she was 43 at the time). She had botoxed them away only once before. That moment made me realise something: even the women closest to me were quietly at war with their skin.


As a teenager, I used to pick at my acne a lot, which prompted my mother to tell me to quit it every time she caught me red-handed. “Your face has become like a baghrir”, she would say. And my face was indeed punctuated by dark brown blemishes that I would attempt to cover with foundation until my early twenties. A roommate once remarked that she had never seen me without it. It was true, I had never ventured out of my room barefaced. However, at some point between the end of my bachelor’s and the beginning of my master’s degree, I quit powder. It stopped having a hold on me. I stopped caring for some reason. It is only now, though, that I realise I was once obsessed with my skin too.